"We had some difficult times, I believe my love for you was one for the ages.... But, as time moves on is this love for someone that really existed...? Or, is this for someone I only hoped for this...? You said, you promised...you would love me forever and never leave...

I wanted to share every second and every moment we had in this life. I don't want to understand. I cannot allow myself to believe...your words meant nothing. You are gone, you sit among the angels now. I am sorry I failed you. Not, I don't know how to get down off this cross that I bear..."