Consciousness bloomed, birthing new life when Pushkara Sally Ashford lost her "art" and raison d'etre - the one constant, her voice - at age 39. This singer and self-proclaimed "godless one," cried for "Help!" In its wake, a profound spiritual awakening revealed realms beyond the limitations of mind. Dissolution of the known universe and experience of love beyond all bounds in a subsequent near death experience spurred the ensuing healing odyssey and spiritual journey spanning 46 of her 85 years. Through the immediacy of poems, song lyrics and visions sandwiched among hundreds of journals, Pushkara shares her reflections from both sides of the veil.