When Lori's musician son Joe first mentioned numbness in two of his fingers, she didn't think much of it. But as days passed and he was hit with a crippling migraine and relentless nausea, her concern deepened. Then came a doctor's devastating diagnosis: "Brain cancer . . . aggressive . . . inoperable . . . twelve-to-fifteen months." Join Lori on an emotional journey through love, hope, despair, and finally open-handed surrender to the wisdom and goodness of God. Joe was strong, healthy, and athletic--a black belt in the mixed martial art Kajukenbo. He was a talented singer-songwriter with an album and several singles. He quietly loved and served those living on the streets, often stopping to chat with them and buy them lunch or a pair of shoes, sometimes literally giving the jacket off his back. Honest and vulnerable regarding her own dark emotions during a season of suffering and uncertainty, her sense of God's absence, and her desperation to withdraw from society, Lori finds that even for a solitude-loving introvert, nurturing our most important relationships is infinitely rewarding, and that God is steadfast in his love and mercy regardless of our feelings about him.