After nearly thirty years of constant depression, Colleen finally decided the pain and uselessness of her life had to end. She knew she would go to hell for taking her own life, but she deserved it. To her surprise, she survived the attempt, considering herself a failure at even suicide. In the years to come, no matter what good happened in her life, she couldn't escape the depression.

Several years later, two tragedies occurred that sent her on a very difficult emotional and spiritual journey that would lead her through a long, lonely tunnel before she could find her way to healing and a joyful heart.