This is a story of a seventeen-year struggle with being addicted to power, self-doubt, and a life in the shadows that people don't typically leave willingly. The biggest problem with addiction isn't the addiction itself but the recovery process, trying to find your place in this "normal" society. Trying to adjust to a life of rules and ultimately trying to live a full life knowing that a piece of you was lost long ago, and you can never get it back.