As a child, Jennah is always afraid of going to bed at night. Either she can't fall asleep or she has nightmares of menacing patterns that come at her, causing her to wake up screaming and exhausted. As a young woman, Jennah, an adoptee, sets out full of curiosity and with a thirst for knowledge to find her origin and the cause of her suffering. Ironically, a sudden re-traumatization provides the impetus to the long-awaited processing of her past. This book is a courageous account of Jennah's long journey through the labyrinth in search of her roots and of the painful but healing process of finding herself.