To be, or not to be: that is the question: Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep; No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd . . . -Shakespeare - Persistent in the human condition are countless souls tormented by grief, despair, hopelessness, self-loathing, guilt, anger. . . Their lives hang precariously in the balance between dread of living and fear of dying. The author of this book was once such a person -- but I never met her. The Pam that I met through 5,000 pages of email exchanges was quite the opposite; the tragedies of her life she mentioned only in passing and without a shadow of self-pity; she was joyful, giving, outgoing, and intently interested in making a difference in the lives of others. It was not I that lead her into the light, but she that lead me there. I loved the way she was, and wanted to be more like her. I married her! So what was the catalyst for the remarkable change in this woman? The answer seems almost trite to say, because it is so frequently so. Her transformation began with prayerful reading and earnest study of the Holy Bible. Through her association with other Christians she has continued to grow in her faith. In this book she courageously shares the pain and joys of her life as her testimony to the healing power of Jesus Christ and the joy of living in His service. May you be blest! - Ray Mann -