"The house was dead, no pun intended. I thought we were all mad, standing and crying to
our hearts content because I still believed my dad could not be capable of doing all of what they say he did...""How could my father do this? "How much courage did it take to do all this?" "Were we not
a happy family?These are questions, that no 12-year-old should ever have to ask themselves- and yet this
was little Alicia's harsh reality. In this heart-wrenching memoir, Alicia "Sewdass" Ramdharee recounts the horrific event
that would see her life thrown into complete chaos and confusion.
While the story of her family's murder-suicide made national news headlines, she was
shuttled from home to home, with no place to belong. Often being blamed for her family's
demise, Alicia struggled to find solace-as feelings of abandonment and disgrace threatened
her physical and mental wellbeing.

This book chronicles her journey as an orphan and her continuous triumph over the shame
of suicide.
For many whose lives have been overshadowed by the suicide of a loved one, this book
serves as a reminder that:

• You are not alone
• It is okay, not to be okay
• Grieving is a process for which there is no quick fix
• Life is breathtakingly beautiful; live it to the fullest

In Alicia's own words; "I wish that as a child, someone took me into their arms and held me
close. I wish that as an adult, no other child or person suffers a murder-suicide."

About The Author

Alicia "Sewdass" Ramdharee is a speaker and the founder of a Suicide Awareness support
group-aimed at giving hope, inspiration, and motivation to those left with the burden of
dealing with suicide.
This passion has led to her resigning from her corporate admin role to pursue the purpose
of creating awareness about suicide and mental health.

Following her move from Durban to Johannesburg (South Africa) at 12 years old, due to the tragic loss of
her family, Alicia now resides in Rustenburg (South Africa) with her high school sweetheart and now
husband, Schivan.

When not raising the alarm on suicide and its effects, she enjoys travelling and experiencing
exotic places and foods around the world.
Her mission in life is to save a life, even if it is just one life at a time.