I had to give the trials and tribulations in my book. Everything in my life was hindering me at that very moment. I always was very unhappy before I had started writing my book. It was a lot of pain to deal with. I could never focus on anything without crying. There is so much pain that is quite annoying. It also makes human agonies are often a mere whisper. I had felt there were glances of hatred that will stab and raise no cry to murder. When my brother was murdered, I had thought that was the end of my life at fourteen years of age. I was suffering from sounds except that of a lot of low moans in the middle of the night. It had brought many months of suppressed anguish and early mourning tears. It had brought pain to my mind, body, and soul during the moments. It was a very unpleasant sensation. And I had suffered a lot of pain with a very real problem in my life in which I had to face daily. People can wear pain on the outside just like a mask, by hiding it from the world. It also can hide deep within you by waiting to be freed by many emotional circumstances. I had physical and emotional pain. I was very lonely after each tragedy that had occurred. And I also can hide deep within you by waiting to be freed by many emotional circumstances. I had physical and emotional pain. I had a lot of discomforts - I didn't even care about anything; Live or die. I was very lonely after each tragedy that had occurred. I had to motivate myself out of a lot of pain such as Fear of loss, uncertainty; change; and failure. One thing I know is that I had to motivate myself to be positive in any aspect of life. I will never give up on anything and anyone and I will always keep on being a great leader in everything and everywhere that I go. I will let God and Let go.